me being peytonISH

peytonISH (adj.) [1] being peyton in one tree hill (season2)... [2]trying not to be alone yet you feel you are.

after going to pque (which turned out the way im not expecting it), I was having a feeling that peytonISH is conquering me. First, the talk is already starting and i'm sooo sweating when i went in front of the chapel. after taking and thinkin, decided not to enter anymore. Maybe I just want to start my SFC in a right way, on time and be able to start the whole talk. after that, I decided not to go home......yet!

while walking towards the highway....several names got into my head where i think i can spend my whole afternoon with them. outcome is that everyone has their own stuff to do. i jst hate the feelin that since im outside already and i dnt want to wste the time without really doing nothing meaningful? outside.

third, decided to go home though it's only 4:30 or 5pm. then decided to go shopping...for my food at the office hehe. i just really concluded how powerful songs can be. songs at grand central (in d supermarket) that time are nice.... nicest among the nice (esp. when u feel all alone haha). at d end of the day, somehow i am relieved that at least i have a family nd home where i can always go on. tnx also for the songs w/c really made me sensitive and full of feelings that im still so blessed. now i am so glad, im not being peytonISH anymore. maybe we really need sometimes that feelin for a much better purpose and reason. ;)