when excitement becomes depression

depression was one of the topics that my friend, Phijay, was discussing on the phone. i hate that word since that was my feeling the day after. i was so excited about my interview with this one company in ortigas. i woke up late but fortunately i was there at exact 10am.

so i had this interview. at first i felt that it was not the usual interview since she spoke to me in Filipino and what she's doing was just a usual conversation coz she's like treating me as one of her new found friends, no formality! =) but what i did was just to stay on my near-to-formal attitude. then it was finished. she told me she's going to call me for updates. i semi-hate that expression since that's the unconscious way of saying "okay, you didn't pass!". i hope im not concluding too fast.

what makes me depressed is that some were asked to come back after lunch for the exam. that was the start of my depressing moments....... of course its too early too tell but i'm not expecting that much anymore. anyway, of course when ur depressed and if u dnt have ur friends or family with u, where is the best way to go. me? i went at the chapel in galleria telling HIM to pls. help me remove the feeling of it. "i really hate this feeling!!" i said. i did the depression removal way just like what others are doing like shopping and the like. what i realized is that this way of depression removal is just merely diverting but not forgetting. soothing and managing yourself and not thinking of it too much is the best integrated way to manage depression. yourself will always be the sure way to go out of it. if this is not really for me, maybe God has any other plans. i just learn from it. now i'm telling myself..... aja!!! ;)